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Weekend coming gonna party with some tea, pancakes and idk might put an audiobook on
while I won’t be at the library I still wish to keep the library vibes going 
heck yeag
what kinds of pancake toppings/fillings do you like?
Old men love it when I dress like a ghost wearing long grey pants, long sleeve grey shirt, and a giant black sun hat in the triple digit heat index.
I feel this interaction is subtly connected to my xenogender, so its kinda cool to be affirmed as such😎
i think i’m transitioning into a child instead of a woman, one tsa guy asked if I was 18, and another asked if I was 13 🫠
I miss getting mistaken for a kid
The estrogen is definitely doing something, though. People routinely think I’m like 10 years younger than I am.
I had lots of fun today. Gotta to yell out “O chinchin ga daisuki” in the streets with a bunch of Japanese people (long story). There were Thai, Mexicans, Taiwanese and tons of people. We ate. We played this physical rhythm game thing. Then I went home.
It took me 5 minutes to become depressed again. Fuck this bullshit ass brain chemistry. I don’t know and I don’t care what mental pathologies I am suffering from. Just go away. Leave me alone.
I don’t want to end on a negative note, so I will just say. I love my boobs. If I went back in time my younger self would be so freaked out. But “he” had dreams of being strapped into a machine and gender swapped. So I think “he” would come round.
mother I never reconciled with going into hospice
Mom is in pretty late stage of cancer, gonna be seeing her later today.
I cut her out of my life years before her stroke and I’m worried she’s not going to recognize me at all - we never really met up or talked after my transition. Still going, though. I figure there’s no reason to hold a grudge here at the end when there isn’t much time left. I’m going to need to deadname my way through this because there’s no way she’ll remember I changed my name.
This is gonna be tough. I don’t owe her shit, but I think I owe this to myself. I’d definitely regret not trying.
I was in a very similar situation with my mom last year. All the best to you comrade, you got this.
I’m meeting with some other trans women for make-up practice this weekend. Quitting Germany really was the best decision. Kinda interesting how I mostly hang out with the other diy girlies. The ones with the diagnoses and endos and stuff just are not as interested.(and also tend to be libs, with some unpleasant opinions)
5h of sleep is not okay. My eepy princess ass can’t deal with this. And today I gotta go to the office
Caffeine getting me through the day just fine. Hahahaha, this will definitely not make me feel horrible in a few hours
dysphoria
Eepy so things are feeling a bit weirder then normal, god I wish I looked like a woman. fuckin- hair and voice and idk what else to change to be that way. I don’t have much to say other then I really want it right now, not that I don’t usually…
I feel sad, longing… envious
spoiler
We’re our own worst critics. People tell me I pass, I get she/her, I get ma’am in public. But when I look in the mirror I just see my dad’s face. You have time for things to morph and meld when you get on HRT eventually too, eggnog. Voice will come if you train, its not easy to get past the hump of starting and shit but it will come.
i keep telling myself that they’re not into me. that they don’t see me as anything other than a friend. that this isn’t a date and that i shouldn’t get my hopes up. idk how much of this is just defense mechanism but… ugh. it’s never worked out romantically for me and i’ve fucking tried more times than I can count
getting my hopes up feels nice but then i immediately get scared and press it back down again. saying this will fail and we’ll only just be friends keeps me safe and dead inside. saying that this will go well and get you a partner just feels like
- Hoping everything works out, comrade.
Most of the time when people call me a woman it feels comfortable, but there’s one particular guy that it just kind of… Doesn’t feel right when he does it. I don’t know if he’s just trying too hard to be supportive or what it is but when he calls me a woman it makes me feel uncomfortable. I genuinely cannot tell you why.
When I was still 100% “cis™” there was this guy at the gym who gave off jealous boyfriend vibes every time I talked to someone other than him. Turns out he was single, and had weirdly specific physical traits he was looking for in a woman. When I asked about non-physical traits he was into, I felt like I was explaining to a toddler that women are people too.
So while I’m not saying your gut is always right, definitely do not ignore it. Does anyone else feel uncomfortable around him?
transphobia
got to hear the boomer cashier at the store call a customer a “transvestite manwoman” today because she thought they were a banned customer who I guess happens to be trans in some fashion
depresso
wish I could stop existing. not in like a sui way, but just disappear for a little while. lay down and evaporate into mist, stop experiencing things for a couple days, a week, a month. even just a little bit of rest would be so nice. I’m so tired.
same
My brain’s doing bad things to me. Wish I could break up with it.
I feel the same way a lot of the time
I got told I have northernlion bits in my blood
Just smoked a pack of fentstradiol
Wish I could do that too
Ahhhh I shaved my legs and they’re already just so prickly! And my hamstrings look like big terrible strawberries because I sat not on the edge of my seat. >:(
I shaved my hamstrings 3 or 4 weeks ago, and I’m still trying to loose all the in-grown hairs. So I made some sugar wax, and I’m going to try that. Also fyi: baby oil is not the same as pre-shave oil, speaking from ouchie first hand experience.
Related: are there any resources linked that have anything to do with body hair removal? Its very hard to find good information. Though I kind of feel that way about everything now…
It just keeps getting worse. This is very not cute. I might just have to be a hairy, un-smooth-legged person.
Eventually most peoples’ skin adapts to getting shaved. Also, I know trans women are especially bad for this because we want SMOOTH, but shave with the grain. Also, use as few blades as you can get. And there’s after shave stuff for your legs you can get. You can do rubs or a rougher cloth whatever and exfoliate and that’ll help too.
omg i swear leg hair is a conspiracy by big razor
I don’t like leg hair. It’s coarse and rough and irritating… and it gets everywhere.
There’s just too much of it. Call for backup!!
Any leg ensmoothening tips would be greatly appreciated.
My friend who happens to be a girl (expectations of always being shaved and everything) and has sensitive skin, told me those hair removal creams are good, I’m going to try those. Razors are terrible for me, electric razors too, waxing is a little better, but I still get red and itchy, and that stuff hurts like hell. Eventually I’ll do laser hair removal stuff, but I can’t afford it just yet
I tried one of those creams once and got more ingrown hairs than I was happy with. Maybe I need to do better about exfoliating.
Razors and electric razors are also not great for me so far, but maybe my skin will adapt to the blades eventually. I’ve had good luck with a DE razor for my face, so maybe I just need to give that a chance further down as well.
I haven’t tried waxing yet, or sugaring. We have an IPL lying around, though. It’s not laser but maybe I’ll give it a shot. Cost aside, I don’t think I want to try laser until I’m sure that I like myself better smooth; I’m kind of in a figuring-out stage right now.
Thank you for the input :)
For my face I never had any problems with anything, but then tried the body and it sucked, idk why
My face is mostly good, but my neck is awful. I’d like to try waxing it but I’m afraid of how painful it might be, specifically with the coarse neck hair. I got my brows waxed and that was perfectly fine, but the hair is much different…
It’s definitely worse body-wise for me as well. I just seem to be pretty prone to shaving problems for some reason. I’ve had some issues with regular razors on my face that were fixable by switching to a DE and shaving every other day, but nothing as bad as electric. I will have bad problems immediately with an electric razor on my face and neck, so I’m not even about to try that elsewhere lol.
you could try waxing or using an epilator, they pull the hair out of the body and it takes longer for it to regrow. If that’s too painful, hair removal cream also lasts longer than shaving.
I haven’t tried waxing or epilating, definitely worth a shot! I tried a cream once, but still had more issues than I was happy about. I might need to just do it more, and also I think I could do better about exfoliating, which might help. Thanks!
Hm I found one of those hair erasers that I bought a while back. Seems to work pretty well. Kinda worried about ingrown hairs. I think I’ll give my legs a day or two to think about life and then hit them with the eraser and see if I regret it.
Luckily I missed some patches with the razor so I could test the other thing.
Whats a hair eraser?
