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Took me 7 hours to deep clean the floor today because I had to take many breaks but I still did it :)
Nice! Cleaning is such an energy-intensive task, but it can be very rewarding.
Tiny child on the bus chanting “More more more snacks” I am with you, your cause is just, rise up against the parentgeoisie
The older I get the more I realize how right kids are - sometimes, other times they shovel dirt in their mouth and put glue in their hair
I am reminded of the author of Where the Wild Things are, who commented on the fact that the greatest compliment he ever received on his work was the time that a small child ate a drawing of his. “He saw it, he loved it, he ate it”. There was no thought to the value of an original drawing by a famous illustrator, no thought to anything but the fact that he liked it so much he wanted to consume it.
only permitted to be a victim
I understand that feeling, but remember that you are so much more than that. Don’t let anybody tell you what you’re permitted to be
I absolutely fucking hate the type of person who just says their thing and then rejects anything you have to say. Its a bit hard to explain the situation at work today without giving away my job but essentially this person made a comparison that is not applicable to our situation at all. She does this kind of thing all the time. But any time I try to explain my position to her, or why I want to do certain things, she cuts me off and throws her hands up and says “you do whatever you want to do, I’m just saying”. I’m not arguing, I’m not being disrespectful. Despite my autism I have no problem with this with like 90% of people. She just doesn’t want to listen to me at all.
Worse is she’s one of the only queer people at work :/
There might just be some history on her side too that makes her act like this. That still isn’t an excuse to be this uncooperative. Do you have any other colleagues that could support you in these arguments?
o god o fuck i dropped all my spoons
Nooooo
I thought my periods had totally stopped. Haven’t had one in months but today one started again. Guess I haven’t gone through the menopause then. Still want a hysterectomy though.
The hysterectomy will definitely help with a lot of the fibroid related issues, and on top of that with your irregular periods. I hope the doctors help you out
Thank you.
I’m just worried if they know I still have the occasional half-hearted period they might be less likely to do a hysterectomy. I’ve read so many stories about women being forced to live with terrible womb-related issues because doctors are more concerned with preserving female fertility than improving female quality of life.I love you, sweetie, and you deserve so much better than all of this
What I do know (only from experience, can’t point to any studies or medical reports) is that fibroids can and do cause infertility. Arguing that you have those combined with a lot of hormonal issues because of your thyroid history might actually be argument enough to get the hysterectomy approved. You may have to be very adamant to get this solution, but I believe in you.
Thanks, love you too.
I will definitely try, no idea how long until I get an appointment though.
I keep my fingers crossed that it won’t take too long
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Today on reddit someone said “After a nuclear war you and the rest of the survivors are running out of food due to a low yield harvest. One person suggests exile all disabled people to the cold wastes to die, another suggests abortion of current pregnant mothers. Other choices are a lottery to decide who dies, or do nothing. What would you rather do?”
They overwhelmingly voted to exile all the disabled people to die.
While I absolutely share your frustration and am glad you shared this post, I wanted to ask you to put a CW for ableism in your post as this is some very dark stuff and it should be marked accordingly.
Edit: Thank you!
Some of the replies are saying this is a reddit thing but I’m pretty sure most people would do the same. This is the dominant view in our society.
CW: discussion of ableist beliefs
Also bc of some very old belief that only “able-bodied” people can survive in harsh conditions. Like, that during an apocalyptic scenario straight out of Hollywood, people who are disabled would just die first, because they’re sick. It’s a very pervasive belief and it makes it sound like each disability is the same.
They always do. Disabled are always the first to go. It happened under the nazis. Its happening in kanada with MAID.
Reddit is fuckin trash-style garbage. additionally if you believed what they say about reality then ron paul would have been the president. Its also just riddled with bots these days, i’ll read through comments and be upset by the comprehension on display until i realize there is no comprehension at all, just bots speaking past each other. Long story short reddit is full of dorks, robo-dweebs, and fascists.
I mean obviously. It is a hypothetical set up explicitly to show an assumed relative worthlessness of the disabled and makes the assumption that we do not contribute.
Name a more iconic duo than reddit and bringing back 19th and 20th century views on the marginalised. The hypothetical is literally framed around useless eaters.
Exile all the Redditors
So I’m having a hard time dealing with my anger. The choice to not fund snap is just evil, no two ways about it. This is going to be awful and i am just furious. its not like spilling into my life or directed towards innocents, but its just roiling inside me. Pure venom.
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I’ve gotten used to my neighbors screams. I am remarking on this only because she just did a big one and I heard someone outside yell in surprise. I yelled “She just does that, don’t worry” which i hope they heard.
One of the benefits of skipping twink status and just going straight to bear is that nobody questions when I go steal food from university events. They side eye a lot of other students walking by, but i just walk up and steal bananas and nobody bats an eye. Yeah I’m gonna have two bottles of water too. Sure. Thanks for the offer of the croissants you just shooed another student away from hut
.Damn, now I want a vegan croissant
Hope you get one.
Sign me up too please!
Does anyone have any advice on how to convince my mother that I’m disabled?
Context tw ableism
I was born with ectrodactyly on both hands and feet. During youth my mom was supportive of me in the “If you try hard enough you can do anything” so of way and to her credit I was pretty athletics and was the goat (international awards and such). But i feel like my athletic prowess skewed her perception of my disability. Now in my twenties, these feet aint made to be stood on and I’ve been condition to assume constant chronic pain is normal. I’ve been using a cane that my grandfather carved for the last week and when my uncle came over yesterday I was telling him about how it has been extending my feet mileage. When my mother entered the conversation that only thing she had to note was that she thought it was a “fashion statement” and laughed :(
This isn’t the first time either, I was talking to my father whos a doctor about wanting to get an ADA parking permit and she chimed in to say it would be selfishly taking away the spot from people who “really need it.” At this point i don’t know where to go with it.my mother is much the same, though in my case it’s because i actively hid my disability from her more when i was younger. it seems to me that the fact im disabled hurts her sense of self image of being a good parent, or something like that. so it might be similar for u. i dont have any advice but that sucks comrade
- I definitely resonate with that. I feel like when i talk to her you can see the dissonance hitting her, its like she knows she cant deny it but there is something internally that is holding her back from admitting it and she isn’t willing to let it go.
If you have a diagnosis or get disability benefits or anything, there’s your proof.
Like you’d assume so right
Hey sweetheart, first of all I’m sorry you have to deal with your mother’s behavior on top of the chronic pain. I think it’s amazing how much you managed to accomplish in spite of it all, and I hope you can feel proud of yourself, for your accomplishments as well as you being you.
That said, I don’t think there is a clear way of making your mother understand how you feel. There’s a few things you can try. If your mom is inclined to listen to you, maybe try to tell her how you feel and how your disability affects you on an emotional level as well as a physical level. Make sure to not compare yourself to others, and stop her from comparing you to others. Say something like “This isn’t about other people, this is about me, how I’m feeling and how I’m struggling.” You need to be very patient but firm while you do it, which is always hard when you talk to a parent. I hope this way works out for you.
If your mother refuses to listen, however, I’d suggest getting that parking permit regardless of what she says. You’re an adult, you have a right to ask for these things and to receive help, whether or not your mother agrees with it or not.
On a more lighthearted note to cheer you up
Having a cane is good if it helps you, but it’s also a good opportunity to customize it and make it your own. Make it look unique to you, if you haven’t done so already, and color it, give it some racing stripes or flames, whatever you like and makes you smile when you use it. It’s your support, and I think it makes it easier to wear it with pride.
Thank you for your support and comment
Luckily I do believe that she is willing to listen with time. In regards to you other note, I made sure to do some customizing and once I decided on using it more I wrapped it with faux leather to make its accents pop 
I hope it does help you
And it sounds lovely! Hope it brings you some joy alongside the help!
Back when I thought I just had depression and anxiety I thought maybe someday I’d be “better”, or at least better enough that I’d be able to do more normal stuff.
Now that I know that those are just side effects and I’m dealing with BPD, cptsd, and autism there’s not really any hope anymore.
Not BPD/cpstd (well maybe on that last one) but yea same.
literally me if you swap out the BPD for DID. yea i have those feelings really often too, really frustrated that i can’t really even leave the house
for me what helped the most was radical acceptance that it’s actually okay to not be able to do normal stuff and just relax all day, but it took a very very long time to get there
Those are some heavy things to manage and work through, especially day-to-day. I hope you can still experience some of the things you want in the future, even if they come about a bit differently than you’d imagined.
its funny how doctors will write up a report saying “patient denies homicidal thoughts” like they can see right through me and im putting up a weak defense
patient denies being a stupid lil gayboi who can’t even do an ollie
I’m absolutely baffled at that statement. Why would the doctor think you have homicidal thoughts?
And you are not stupid, don’t forget that
homocidal thoughts towards iof soldiers.
The Outer Worlds 2 has some of the best looking prosthetic options ive ever seen in a game. I Love that sci-fi Art Nouveau style
