Hello everyone~ The megathread is very eepy this week so I am being very quiet and not posting a whole essay as that might disturb their rest. The megathread does a lot of work for us after all, so they deserve to rest a little. Our regularly scheduled effortposts will continue next week.
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hello gang, once again here to ask if anyone wants to sign up to make the mega and also claim my spot at the top of the comment pile
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I’ll do another one and can I also have the week of December 29?
done!
add me pls, it’s been ages since I had a mega up
done!
i would like one mega please
im trans
I used to be trans, I still am, but I used to be, too.
omg me too
I fucking love this for you 💖
You wouldn’t download a gender
I don’t just pirate my gender, I reverse engineer and patch it to do things off-the-shelf genders can’t
:jcdenton:
My gender is augmented
I’m going to wear a skirt tomorrow, i’m going to do it. I’m gonna do it. I’m going to wear one and go into town and look at books. I’m going to browse at the thrift store and buy nothing. I’m going to wile away the day existing in the real world and not from behind the screen.
Ive been vegan for a month
Got casually she/her’d for the first and second time in the last few days, very exciting, also seems like B/C cups overrides being really tall (thank you padded sports bra)
ALL PRAISE THE PADDED SPORTS BRA
SHIELD AGAINST ALL MALE GENDERINGS
if this is too much tell me and I’ll delete it, or mods just delete it. Know it doesn’t bode well that I’m venting here instead of getting help IRL, and yet here I am.SI, past suicide attempt, heavy depressing shit
Realizing I only ever come to this site at my lowest with my no social support. Like I made this account to get advice about how to talk to friends about me trying to overdose the day before. Petty bourgeois parents won’t do shit to help, they hold my livelihood in their hands. If they decide to stop paying for my housing and insurance I’m fucked, too mentally fucked to hold a job, and even more fucked up without my depression meds that barley help. Just feels like I’ve wasted my life. Have had opportunities I never deserved given to me, and yet I couldnt handle a light course load in college, and amshattered mentally where I can barley stay alive mentally even with having my bills paid off. And even more fun, day after I tried to kill myself, parents randomly fly in and invite themselves to my days acting happy to see me and seemingly unaware of the tightrope I have to walk to make sure they think I’m happy and not depressed, instead of finding out my reality of deep depression and then cutting me off. Just don’t know what to do anymore
virtual hug initiated
You don’t need to worry about your “accomplishments”. They only mean something if they bring you happiness. If not having them gives you sadness, then forget about them.
Don’t let college become a ghost in your head that you chase after. That’s what I did and it killed parts of me. Now I can brag to employers about how exploitable I am cause I’m in debt and have no friends.
I know many people who come to college to waste their time and party. They are the ones really wasting their life. You are instead taking care of your life, you just need more effort for it than others.
spoiler
That tightrope walk is so hard… I hope theres some respite for you soon, even if its just some icecream and cuddling a plushie. Im sorry i have no advice (if i did i would be taking it
) but, well, youre heard and like i know what its like and it sucks. I keep applying for jobs but even if i get hired ill probably lose it to another mental health episode…Its tough out there, im glad you at least have here to vent to
*huggies*
Why did nobody tell me bralettes make you feel so cute omg
Gender affirming how I have to wear a bra everyday. It’s literally more comfortable with one on than when I am without.
yeah, it’s great having “too big to ignore” tits, isn’t it?
I too am very eepy so I will be going to bed, g’nite everyone~
TRANSITION MILESTONE ACHIEVED:
- RANDOM GUY IN PUBLIC STARTS FLIRTING WITH YOU -
still kind of shook because it was so unexpected but uhh… now i know how the other girls feel when it happens. Blend of euphoria and ewphoria but i’m going with 85% euphoria and 15% ewphoria here
I got hit on by gay dudes prior to transition, now they dont (which is fair). No straight guy has ever shot his shot with me in public, its all been femmes. Dunno what that means lol
- hell yeah happy you happy
I got catcalled at the park while doing laps and it was like 99.9% ewwwww and super not okay for him to do that and i feel vaguely guilty about the .1% of my brain that i have no control over that is delighted about it.
if some guy cat called me i’d probably try picking a fight with him if i could while also being faintly flattered by it. it’s still gross but i’m also a massive slut for attention
I don’t think I’ve been flirted with yet (but who knows because I am an oblivious
) but definitely get random compliments.:o that is so cool! congrats!
Remember when Luigi shot that CEO?
That ruled
Sometimes I see people joke about “genetically encoded cup size” but this is completely ignoring reaction norm. Your breasts are not genetically fated! They are historically contingent. It’s dialectical you see…
My mom always attributed her large bust size to her in mexico constantly grinding by hand maize when she was growing up, eating all those tamales and such probably had to do with it too
Everyone told me to expect about a cup size less than what the cis women in your family have, and for me I was right on target. They’ve always whined about their big breasts and I have perfectly sized medium-large boobs. The perfect balance 😎
Inanna let this be me 🙏
guess I’m just gonna have lowercase a cups then
It don’t mean much after my boobs filled it but I was pretty happy with boy chest and smaller boobs lol. It can be a strong look! Easier to buy a bralette or bandeau instead of springing for a new bra.
May your boobs grow big 🧞♀️ Plenty of femmes break the genetic mold
My mom was like “the white streaks in your hair look so pretty”
finally getting ethereal and mystic lookingeeeeee~ white streaks in hair are sooooooo pwetty
I know right, at this point my whole fam is on the dying their hair like once a month but I wanna let it go as a badge of honor for making it this long
Still impatiently waiting on my salt and pepper era so I can start dying the streaks without having to bleach my hair.
What color you thinking of, way long ago when I had short hair I remember dying it blue but then afterward just having some streaks of blonde that looked cool. Honestly if it didn’t make me miserable I would have liked how my beard had streaks of red in it.
Purple, green, blue, pink. Probably dye different parts of my hair different colors
millennials are a visually weird generation because some of us still have baby faces into our 30s but also some of us have graying hair before 30, and there’s a decent amount of overlap between the groups
I know my nephew has it worse at 22 with way more streaks of white hair, idk how I’d describe my own face but I have been trying to lose weight and take care of my skin better. My face has been getting more angular recently but then I see a video of myself and go damn guess not.
My mom was freaked out when she spotted my white hairs. I have a few, no streaks. They dont bother me but they really bothered her! I think to her the idea of her kid being old enough to have a few white hairs kinda put time into a different perspective.
They’ve never bothered me though, Ive been asked at salons if I want them touched up. I could pluck em I guess at home. But I feel no emotional content towards them good or bad
I’m the youngest of my siblings so I guess my mom was used to it by now, I just think they look neat is all
why the fuck does every form of flirting feel like sexual harassment
and what the fuck can i do about it
believe that you are desired
Yes, but this can be very difficult to do when you’ve never experienced love. Like, I’m still struggling with this myself, no matter how many times my girlfriend says she loves me, because I’m not used to this new feeling.
well there’s my problem
i’ve never really believed that in my life
i know i should but uh… it’s hard to just flip on that switch
Like when you flirt with others it feels like youre harassing people?
yeah. i want to flirt with people but literally anything i do feels like i’m going too far. there is no “safe” area, i might as well be sexally harassing someone. this means i basically can’t flirt with anyone because anything is a bridge too far and idk what to do
I dunno if your city has a gay bar or some trans t4t style event but usually people go to those to be flirted with.
Do you feel locked up by anxiety and fear of rejection? Or is it a fear that you dont deserve to come on to someone because you think trans people shouldn’t because of some possibly internalized transphobia? If you’re worried about coming across as creepy, the fact that you care how you come across puts you way ahead of creeps
I fear that anything I say is going to be followed with a “stop talking to me creep” and is too far, unwarranted, and just creepy. So the only time I ever say anything “flirty” it just comes off as 100% friendly and only slightly plausibly flirting
why the fuck does every form of flirting feel like sexual harassment
Big mood, I think a lot of it is just testing boundaries and backing off if you get a no or maybe. I think all my crushes went nowhere mostly because I kept people at arms length by being polite vs warm. A good way to get started is probably bullshitting with friends not necessarily flirting but more ripping on each other like good friends do, if you go too far with a friend you apologize and talk through it.
