rtstragedy2 [fae/faer, she/her]

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Cake day: August 6th, 2025

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  • This is a great project, if I could make a suggestion, it might be helpful to add, to the “availability” category:

    • f.droid app store
    • the ability to generate wireguard and/or openvpn files. I know a few providers support this and its generally a better experience on Linux IME with Wireguard than trying to get their applications running on various different distros, since its natively supported with NetworkManager. There’s also a Wireguard app for Windows but I haven’t tried it, and of course OpenVPN is well supported on all major operating systems. Some advanced features may not be available, or can be set up in some cases at creation of the configs. I’ve only personally done this with Proton and it’s worked well. (I think PIA discontinued openvpn generation years ago which sucks as I had a lot of trouble with their app on Linux since I wanted to make a headless server)

  • looks like this is from january, so I guess it would have if it could have. Sites like HN are full of “but have you tried it THIS week??? Otherwise your opinion is invalid”

    I don’t know what to expect from a correction since there’s just constantly a “new, better model” every day, thousands on hugging face alone, let alone proprietary ones. It makes the effort to prove the negative (ie. These models are not useful for most tasks) very high so I don’t typically argue with people about it. I think that the constant treadmill to keep up with the “improvements” is part of the marketing, to be honest.

    I’m sure this is typical of every bubble but to be honest I’m not sure what’s going to pop it if GPT-5 didn’t, if OpenAI’s P/L statements don’t, if businesses aren’t fatigued yet with all of the “news” about new models, if the economics not making sense hasn’t stopped anyone… it’s a weird time in tech right now.


  • Yeah that’s kinda where I was landing. Outside of contexts which are medically relevant it seems like it’s used just to other trans people entirely.

    At least no one says “biological X” anymore that I have to deal with, ha. Because I’d have some words with even a doctor who did, for the reasons you described. Really these terms in medicine are not addressing the core issue imo: how I was assigned at birth isn’t an indicator of X or Y, the (incorrect) hormones my body naturally produced and the anatomy that those hormones grew are the differences, right? Kind of a mouthful, though.

    These assignment terms break down for intersex folks as well, because you can’t assume hormonal makeup based on how someone was assigned, since a doctor can just make it the heck up or the external anatomy can just not match pubescent development as well.

    Anyway sorry it’s been something I was wondering about after hearing it yesterday and the thread here made me curious again.



  • also also

    • day something of “see software project that might be good to use for work” and then “oh. It’s written in Rust…??.” I gotta stop being surprised by this to be honest, but the way certain tech spaces talk, Rust is a pointless language and you should just use (roll d20). It’s the best language I’ve ever learned imo and I enjoy writing it and it’s neat to see more and more projects picking it up in tons of domains. Today’s was a postgres extension for loading parquet files.
    • I finally got a weapon swing animation working in my game project. Wow. I needed to make diagrams to get the damn thing in my head, it took me like a month to really get my head around the problem, but I built a basic state machine on top of Bevy’s existing animation system and IT WORKS maybe I’ll post a video sometime. Next challenges will likely be pathfinding, more state machines (but for enemy behaviours), and um I guess actually making it fun?

  • my dad (positive), medical stuff (postivie but scary)

    my dad apparently got told recently that despite supposedly having a heart attack a few years ago, his heart is fully functional. I’m relieved, he is a treasure, despite all his flaws.

    Him and I talked a bit this morning and he says since their dog had puppies mom’s been a lot more physically active too, up and down stairs with little effort, doing all the weeding in the garden. He says he can do high intensity runs now and it’s going well, he keeps a close eye on his heart rate tho.

    He also mentioned… That he wants to cut out animal products basically entirely from his diet because his triglycerides are high. I’ll take it as a win tbh. We’re gonna visit next month and teach them tons of vegan recipes, make seitan and “chicken” (vegan) soup, tofu tacos, and well I have to figure out a bunch more.

    Believe it or not, I spent a year building houses when I was young. My bf wants to build raised garden beds as the old garden is rotting and falling apart, so I’m excited to put my skills cutting wood to work again. We talked about kits but like, it’s just some wood screwed together… Couldn’t be simpler. We are planning to skip plastic lining and treated wood just to keep the complexity down, which means they won’t last long, but I figure we can just call the setup temporary because we’ll likely want to change it up in a few years anyway.

    Also also I finally found the site I have been looking for that has reasoned arguments against generative AI, proves beyond a shadow of a doubt that this whole shit is a bubble and gives me ammunition to fight back against it at work etc. I think the link was posted here yesterday. I read it all. Finally the world is making sense again. I am so sick of hearing about this shit in tech spaces, at work, etc. https://www.wheresyoured.at/the-case-against-generative-ai/ (cw: lots of numbers)


  • I had some trouble getting it to connect to my TV via HDMI. The solution turned out to be to switch back to the open source display driver instead of Nvidia’s proprietary one LMFAO

    I actually ran into something similar with Fedora a month or two back where it would boot into a “no signal” mode. Tried a few things and it would intermittently work, sometimes I’d get to the login screen, but get “no signal” once I logged in.

    I was frustrated trying to get beta nvidia drivers working on fedora so on a whim installed Arch and …it fixed the issue? Same proprietary driver version even!? Ive been using Linux my whole life and I have no clue what’s going on here.

    I don’t think switching distros is a viable solution for the problem, but it is weird that it worked.




  • some dysphoria stuff, weird existential things, some sex talk, some brainworms too yay

    I don’t think my dream self matches my day self sometimes.

    I am pretty fem-shaped IRL and it’s weird that in my dreams sometimes I’ll be kinda … a guy? sometimes I have dreams where I even use the bottom parts I am trying to get rid of for sex things?

    I always wake up feeling weird, like maybe I’m repressing some secret thing about myself. I hear about other people dreaming in their identified gender and with their ideal body even and such and so it always puzzles me that my dreams are sometimes just stuck in “guy mode.” I’ve been kind of envious in the past of it.

    It’s easy to say “it’s just a dream,” and I’m happy with who I am when I look in the mirror (compared to the alternative), but there’s just these lingering doubts that I have sometimes like “maybe I’m not really trans and instead I’m just traumatized by my first romantic relationship and that led to me having wires crossed and suddenly wanting to be her.” That line of thinking is something my (at the time) unsupportive mother said when I first came out, and if I’m honest I don’t think I’ve ever really dealt with it. I feel like I’m so close to disproving it … like there’s something in there that seems fishy but I can’t quite get a solid foundation for it.

    Most days I’m happy with who I am but I just feel like there’s just this little pain that comes up every so often when I have these dreams. I don’t know how to deal with it.




  • i had the actual worst sleep ever, too spicy taco + shampoo that smelled a bit too strong + having to work the next day + a billion nightmares lol i’m tired.

    i'm still doing some gamedev stuff

    it’s been a slog trying to get animations working, both to understand the current Bevy system and to figure out what’s missing to get basic weapon swinging animations going in the little project I’m working on. I don’t think anyone is happy with the current state of Bevy animations and I see a lot of discussion about how to improve it, but, well, no point waiting for the perfect time or perfect engine (since those don’t exist) and everything has weak points.

    Right now my current understanding is that a basic 3D model animation system needs three things:

    1. A way to load keyframe+pose+bone data from somewhere (Some engines have it in-engine, Bevy supports loading from GLTF/GLB which means it’ll load your Blender animations and rigs along with your models) and play back a selected animation with basic controls like repeat/pause/etc. In Bevy this is the AnimationPlayer and there’s an AnimationClip and it’s all tied in to the Gltf class too
    2. A way to combine the individual animation clips from 1 into a graph structure to allow for blending of multiple animations or masking of individual bones (this allows you to, for instance, attack and walk at the same time and play both animations and either blend them together or only have individual bones from each move). Bevy has AnimationGraph for this (and in fact even if you don’t want to use the blending/masking abilities you still need to make an AnimationGraph from a single clip) which you attach to an AnimationPlayer using AnimationGraphHandle and then the player can control which animations are playing.
    3. And a third thing - a state machine of some kind to determine which animations should be playing. Are we idling? Swinging a sword? Getting hit? It all came together when I watched a Unity tutorial and I saw the graph structure in the animation system there - basically it can respond to external triggers and also internal logic to shift between states, which have one or more animations playing. Bevy doesn’t currently have something tailor built for this so I’m uh stumbling through making my own.

    There are seams and dumb assumptions I made everywhere and I don’t have a working demo yet but the code is starting to come together, its just a lot of balancing simplicity vs flexibility for the project I’m working on since I don’t plan to re-use this code.

    Of course, animating UI and 2D is a whole other thing.

    some thoughts on adhd

    I think that since I started ADHD meds my interests have become a lot more stable and long-lasting, which is nice. Previously I think it would be difficult to connect with people about interests and to find people who have things in common with me because I’m constantly into something new and of course I want to talk to people about the things that interest me. idk just a thought I had at 3am