Y’know, when I signed up for this back in June I had grand plans for some grand writeup on the domestically produced unmagnified gunsights of Cuba. I had collected images and info and sources but I lost sight of it as life stuff happened and my time for the trans mega snuck up on me.

Que sera sera.

Anyways, today felt like the first whisper (you have no idea how hard I just thought about the ideal word for this metaphor) of autumn and that put me in the mood for one of my favorite autumnal albums. More Constant Than the Gods by SubRosa is a really lovely doom? sludge? metal album. I like how big it sounds. The lead vocalist is a really talented lady, and its got violins, also the lyrics talk about dying and stuff and I’m into that. Its very fall-y to me, as is Standard Time Volume 1 by Wynton Marsalis, but for extremely different reasons.

The funny thing is that, like the poster of the previous mega it is also my 5th transiversary, I started HRT half a decade ago today (ok technically it was the 17th but I’m gonna count it since thats when I started writing this). Now, I don’t think that taking HRT was what made me “officially trans”, rather it was the degree of self acceptance required to get to that point. It’s a long story, and one I prefer to share privately, but it took a very, very long time before my fear and desperation gave me the strength to allow myself to have this. I think it all turned out pretty well, I experience existence in much higher fidelity, I’m this whole person, along with everything that entails.

I feel very blessed to be transgender.

I hope you all stay safe and have a good, or atleast tolerable week.

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  • gaystyleJoker [she/her]@hexbear.netMEnglish
    5·
    12 days ago

    guess who’s about to fly off the fucking handle if you don’t sign up to make a mega? this gal (imagine i put my fist thumb-first through drywall)

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  • XiaCobolt [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    13·
    7 days ago

    I have already made a number of strangers smile as a 6ft something 30 something t-slur yeets past them on a scooter on this first day of spring weather.

  • Alisu [she/her, they/them]@hexbear.netEnglish
    12·
    7 days ago

    I am very sad again. I think I need to open up with someone, but… Not right now, not yet. I need to probably write like, 3 pages. I need time to be sad. To process everything that I’ve pushed down. Maybe it will be fine, maybe it won’t. For now, it’s best not to think about it.

  • semioticbreakdown [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    9·
    7 days ago

    I have acquired my first tarot deck which was by chance this deck. I grabbed it because the art looked nice and kind of a callback to the classic style and to my surprise it turned out to be super queer and trans and I love it very, very much.

  • TerminalEncounter [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    7·
    7 days ago

    I really miss working with kids 😭😭

    I didnt think I would. My last job kinda sucked cause of the unit culture and my coworkers. Also being in my shitty hometown far away. But I actually legitimately wish I was doing more pediatrics work 😥

  • XiaCobolt [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    6·
    6 days ago

    On my whimsical journey I got to talking to a nice old lady outside a shop, turned out she works/worked in a healthcare field somewhat adjacent to mine.

    When I told her my job she said “wow you must be one of the last men in that field, it’s all women these days”

    I lost it giggling and was Iike “so funny story…”

    She was very chill, found it funny too and asked me a bunch of curious questions. I didn’t mind because she was at least 70.

  • Disaster_of_Passion [kit/kit's, she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    8·
    7 days ago
    looking at old pictures

    I was going through deleting all my old social media, I’d been meaning to for ages and never got around to it, and was going through all the old pictures just in case there were some (of not me) I would want to keep.

    I knew from the offset this could be bad, especially since before I figured out I’m trans and while I was repressing I presented hypermasc, so was kind of prepared for the worst.

    I was lucky in that I didn’t find any of them dysphoria inducing, looking at the really old ones my brain doesn’t register that it’s a picture of “me,” but I was really affected by one of the pictures.

    It was just a regular ass selfie, it was a couple of years before I started on HRT the first time and I wasn’t out to anybody at the time or anything but it was around the time I started going clean-shaven and I had this gay ass little haircut, but my brain recognized it as me and saw it as a woman.

    idk maybe it’s silly but this was the first time seeing any sort of pre-transition picture of myself and it connecting with my brain, let alone seeing a pre-transition picture of me and my brain going “yup that right there is a woman.” so anyway now I’m crying, but like good haha

  • sodium_nitride [she/her, any]@hexbear.netEnglish
    8·
    7 days ago
    horny+accidental anti-girl-cock propaganda

    I’m feeling a little lesbian today. Can’t say that there aren’t some cuties that make me go crush, but then I have trouble distinguishing “I would love to get my guts rearranged by her wearing a strap-on” vs “God please give me a figure and fashion sense like that”.

    In my defense of liking girls, I liked girls so much I became one!

    To add on to the horniness, one of my dream scenarios is go meet up with another t-girl and then we can both engage in lesbian sex using strap-ons and purge the last remaining pretenses of masculinity away from our bodies and mind. The exact opposite of being an alpha male. Proving that our penises are nothing but vestigial attachments.

    Ok that’s enough horny fantasising.