Hair is being a problem for me. Facial hair, I don’t like shaving (painful) (bloody). Not shaving it also sucks (prickly little growths) (spiky). Trimming isn’t really sufficient.
Also, chest hair is being an issue. I don’t want to try to shave it (that would be another level of hell). Trimming also leaves behind spiky hair that stings.
Hair growth on my head is going nicely. I like it. Then I think about how I will need to go to my parents during the summer and I don’t want them to know about my situation so I am going to have to keep my hair relatively short .
I’ve also started thinking that I should lower the dose of my hormones to slow down feminization. At this rate, I won’t be able to hide my chest growths even with a breast binder. My parents want me to be over for basically the entire summer and I don’t have a good excuse to not go. How am I to live with them in the same house while still hiding my feminization? .
Damn I feel this. I really want to live true to myself and be who I want to be, but I’m also crippled by anxiety and a fear of confrontation. Being openly queer invites people to dislike you and I really want to be liked by everyone