ExtimateCookie [he/him]

Mostly economic/health anxiety. I live in a country with no safety nets and barely make a living. I already have health issues so I’m afraid if things get worse I won’t be able to afford to get healthcare. But I tried lately to have a healthier lifestyle and it’s helping a bit with the anxiety

The past few years I’ve been struggling a lot and isolating myself. I sometimes spent weeks without even going outside and developed intense social anxiety. A little over a month ago I had a health scare where my diabetes meds weren’t working anymore and blood sugar got so high I had to go to the hospital. After that I totally changed my lifestyle and started going for long walks everyday and doing some workout at home. My mental health is much better and my blood sugar level dropped to a normal level. I feel more energy and stamina than I did in years. It did take a health crisis, but I’m proud I made such a change. I wouldn’t have thought it possible few months ago.

Damn I can’t believe people have this and don’t take advantage of it. As someone who lives in a developing country, even in a big city we don’t have the concept of a public library. I can’t even find books I want anywhere and shipping costs more than the book itself, which is huge if you factor in the difference in currency. I just read digital books now but it’s tricky especially for complex philosophical books where you want to go back and forth. Paper books make engaging with complex books easier.

I feel as if there’s a level of hopelessness online now. With all the wars and genocide going on, it’s hard to stay optimistic. Maybe that’s just me though