Feeling very isolated presently. My IRL friends are always on the other end of a phone; there’s hardly any time to see them in-person. And sometimes we go a long time without texting. My brain is too much of a mess to go out and meet people. I’m almost always afraid if not straight up paranoid, so it’s hard to establish connections with people. I got into ham radio, but it’s hard to bring myself to talk over the radio, and the things that interest me more like packet radio and radio BBSes and such are dead as no one does that anymore. Try to go online to find people who do it, and I’m met with “just use the internet.” I don’t like online games usually because people can be super toxic, and I’m too soft to handle that usually. Even on here I get nervous and disappear for weeks or longer, and nobody’s even been mean to me on here.