Hi! I’ve been extremely tired this week and nearly forgot that I was hosting one so I’m writing this last minute! I couldn’t think of anything so I’m going to write about one of my hamsters who is not Biggs; Meredith
Meredith was another hamster of mine from a few years ago during the early days of COVID, and she was the absolute sweetest little creature I had ever met. Very friendly, very gentle. She loved exploring anywhere I put her into and never bit me okay she did once ever. She was an absolute sweetheart and bundle of love and was with me during some of the rougher parts of my life
She unfortunately died very suddenly out of the blue one day at a terribly young age showing no symptoms of anything wrong with her prior, which breaks my heart to this very day
I never had her as long as any other hamster of mine but I don’t think I had any other hamster touch my heart in quite the same way. I miss you, girl
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Bi-cycle is slowly turning towards women and I don’t like it
sex and stuff
Feels like I’m a lot more “compatible” with guys. I refuse to top anyone ever, and with guys that’s just expected so I don’t even have to discuss it, but last time I dated a girl it was kind of an issue and I felt selfish and it was just an awful situation and I don’t want to experience it ever again.
Comphet is such a powerful force.
Toppy womenfolk like me are out there, but can feel hard to find a lot of the time. Best of luck, comrade. 
sex
There are so many ways to have sex. It’s very possible for you to find a girl who wouldn’t want you to do that.
“Top” is a very broad term which can include a lot of things, so I’m not sure exactly what you’re referring to, but there are just so many possibilities outside of the top/bottom dynamic.
Protip: being in a relationship doesn’t necessetate sex,
sex
noone has to top anyone, or you can try mutual masturbation
spoiler
honestly, mood. My bi-cycle has shifted super heavily towards men in the last few months and I still can’t really accept it. But I get you about feeling “required” to top if you’re with a girl. Part of why I think I keep circling back to men is because more than anything I really don’t want to be expected to top. Like, I don’t even want to have that discussion, I just want it to be assumed that I’m the bottom here and that’s that. I hate having to feel like I need to reaffirm my bottom status and am constantly worried that it might get taken away with another (hypothetical) female partner. I want someone who I don’t have to ask to dom me. (I get that men =/= dom and women =/= sub but like, fuck. Every t girl i’ve flirted with on the internet is just a raging sub and it’s hard to find a dom)