This might be outta left field (far left, of course lol) but I’m hurting real bad right now and need some fine fellows to lend moral support. I lost my fiance four years ago and still struggling with the damn bottle(and really don’t want to anymore). What is the most positive, uplifting thing you can say to someone struggling on getting back to equilibrium? I need some solidarity right now <3
You can go to Southeast Asia and there will be a variety of new bugs and fruits
The first couple of days of sobriety were always so strange for me. I’d try to go to sleep (or more accurately stare at a fucking wall or tv for hours until I eventually succumbed to it) with an unfocused but overwhelming feeling of dread and anxiety, but the first few days waking up without being hungover were so awesome and energizing. I’d be tired as everloving shit because of the miserable sleep and chemical changes, but somehow still feel better and more capable than I did in years. That’s all to say, I’m sorry I missed the boat to help you last night, but I hope you have an awesome fucking morning because you’ve earned it.
There will be good days and bad days and the nature of the beast changes as the days turn to weeks turn to months but every day gets a little bit easier. I started drinking for somewhat similar reasons to you, but I don’t want to assume I know your struggles so I won’t say anything more. Even so, it might be hard to see when times get tough, but life is still better in every way without the drink. Stay strong friend.
Thank you, friend. I’m trying to make the best of the morning. Yeah, that overwhelming sense of impending doom and anxiety really fucks with your head hard. That was my night all night long, especially since, once again, I fucked myself on rent this month and am still $185 short. But I’m optimistic. If I have I’ll sell my old Honda. It’s not worth having without a place lol. And yeah, once you finally get past the detox and feel fucking healthy and human again it’s a sunshine and motherfucking rainbows feeling. I can’t wait. I was so sick from last night that today I’m still having to ween myself, but I hope today will be the last day I have to. Currently slowly drinking a beer so I stop dry heaving and shaking like a damn leaf. Feeling a bit better after finishing most of the beer. We’ll see how the day goes. Luckily I have my food stamps and can chug vitamin water all day and finally eat something (when I’m drinking I barely eat, if at all). Thanks for the support ;)
Be proud of yourself. What you have done requires incredible strength and bravery. Every hour of sobriety is a victory you have earned. Let each victory support the next. You are doing this.
I’m trying. It’s just been so demoralizing to keep falling back off again. But you’re right, I need to continually remind myself of my victories when I am sober and celebrate what I am accomplishing at that time. I’m still having to ween today (was trying not to have to but I detoxed HARD last night with night terrors, tremors, dry heaving and not being able to sleep more than an hour or two) I had to get up and get one beer (sipping on it slowly right now) but hopefully I’ll only need this one, another one after this one maybe at most. And after this damn time detoxing I’m never fucking making any exceptions for alcohol again. It’s not worth it. Next fuck up will be jail or dying and I can’t go there. I have too much at stake and too many people that love me (including you lovely comrades <3) to fall off again. I’m getting too damn old or this lol
I believe in you. Wanting to be free of it is the most important part. I have a very close friend who has struggled with alcohol himself. He had a good couple of years but this summer decided he was going to “experiment” with drinking a little. Predictable result was a night in the drunk tank (miracle that it wasn’t a DUI). He’s back on track now and I know I’ll never give up hope for him.
This is my cat Bean, she is the best thing in my entire world.
I hope she can atleast bring some good feels.
We found her in a parking lot when she was just a baby, she was sick and had an injured leg but now she is very healthy and spoiled. I don’t know if this is encouraging or helpful to hear but, I think living on despite how awful the world can be and staying healthy lets us be there to help the little creatures of the world who cannot always help themselves. She keeps me going is all I mean.
Awww adorable
Here’s my communist dog that reads more theory than meAnd yea, I agree completely. My life would be much worse without him in it. He’s the one thing that keeps me going
Omg I love their little beard
Haha, many people thinks he looks like a distinguished professor, I like to joke and say he has a degree in philosophy
He looks incredibly wise. I feel like I could ask him questions and he would answer them with questions.
Oh he is. I think he has most of the answers to the questions I ask him, but I’m not completely fluent in terrier, but he answers with complete confidence 😅
This too shall pass. Right there with you, 16 years clean from Heroin. Keep WANTING it. It’s the root of what will keep you going and becoming the version of you that you desire to see.
Damn, congrats man. H isn’t easy yo beat either. Yeah, this time more than all my other times combined I want it BAD. I’m so exhausted with detox, hospitals and (sometimes) cops. It’s fucking beyond shitty and I have to be there for my dog too which males me disappointed in my actions when he doesn’t understand why dad isn’t around.
This dog exists, that’s pretty neat I think
Somebody grab sphere.dog in case we lose the domain again.
IT’S HIS FINAL EVOLUTION 😂 Thanks for that lol
I have two dumb things that I hope bring joy:
- Mario Party 4/5/6 are being decompiled and ported into a singular PC game with online multiplayer functionality
- I saw the sweet apartment kitty that I was worried had something happen to it in a window happily snoozing near the front of my complex today and found out the person living there adopted it about a week ago
Whoa that Mario Party port sounds sweet! Is there a project website so I can see how it’s going?
Oh man, that’s awesome. I didn’t know they’d decompiled those. I have Mario 64 on my Linux laptop. Haha, that’s cute
I found a new audiobook series I really really like so far called Children of Time, its about humanity developing a virus that can uplift creatures and cause them to evolve sapience, and through some particular circumstances it ends up being a species of jumping spiders, we see them evolve and develop and create a civilization, I can send you the audiobook file somehow I’m sure, if you wanted it!
The first book was awesome, have you continued the saga?
I’m on book 2 right now holy SHIT this goo is scary
You’re doing something very, very hard, but very, very worthwhile, you have made it this far already and I am so fucking proud of you.
I’ve been increasingly finding myself able to just enjoy silly little moments. Like looking at a nice tree, eating a good sandwich, seeing a bird or something silly. Gives me a nice Zen feeling that makes me feel a bit more content and happy with life.
When you finally get a good night’s sleep, it will be a great night’s sleep.
Goddamn ain’t that the truth. When you are going through detox you can barely sleep, if at all. It’s one of the (many) side effects of alcohol withdrawl that is a damn killer. I miss my sleep so much. Tonight should hopefully be better than the last few days since I’ve tapered off enough, but it’ll still be shitty until I’m fully detoxed.
I don’t know the first thing about what you’re going through, but I’ve always found that whenever I felt that life was out of complexity, mystery, and beauty, I was dead wrong. May you enjoy your newfound health and find joy and peace soon
The mystery and beauty has to keep us going. I find when I forget that fact I lose believing in a good life for myself.
I found a YouTube link in your comment. Here are links to the same video on alternative frontends that protect your privacy:
I made it to my dentist appointment
ill write something else a lil later
Okay, while at the dentist, they had the a(us)bc 24 hour news channel on, and I saw a PFLP flag front and centre of some footage from palestine
I also wanted to add, detox has some real stigma, and can be undeniably bad, but cutting your drinking will undeniably do you good, and I’m proud of you for taking that step
a place a friend was at had an intense black mould problem, i think they mostly passed the time drawing and reading, I visited them almost every day for the two weeks, and called them when I couldnt, if you dont have anyone who can come bring you supplies, I’d probably do a lot of writing and listening to audiobooks amd podcasts
it’s pretty easy to find audiobooks free online, and pdfs and epubs are even easier, i use Read Era for pdfs on android (google play), and PageTurner for epubs (fdroid), I use antennapod for podcasts (cant recall where i downloaded that, i just remember podcast addict was draining my phone battery intensely)
be kind to yourself, read lenin, marx and engels
She’s happy I’m home!
