I too struggle with the focus thing. Seemed so easy when I was a kid I’d stay up reading all night until sunrise but the drudgery of day to day life and all its problems seeps into my brain overriding whatever I’m reading where I loop the same sentence over and over again without even realising.
Summaries won’t fix that but honestly not even sure what will. A reading group mayhaps could help set goals and discussion is always fun. Lemme know when you figure it out
I’m actually trying to train my attention span to get longer again but its tough business with all these phones and scrooling content about the place. Honestly might just make my router ethernet only and force myself off the internet entirely
You know at one point I tried to force myself into the headspace of doing what it took to become a game developer; I was ready to go to university AND still be a working man at the same time, or at least I was psyching myself into it; then I realized I hate having commitments and decided to just put it aside. Having goals and structure definitely makes things extremely more manageable for me (as I found out when I dove into NaNoWriMo); but…like, several years of university? Like…sure, I’d love to be a game developer but like…who’s got that kind of time and patience?
I also wanted to be a writer (got stories in my head I’d love to put to paper), but it takes skill to be a good writer, and it takes practice to hone those skills and like…that’s just too much effort.
The only two things that work for me is someone else setting expectations on me to do something or letting my hyperfixation demon guide me. The former is good but can’t really find anyone to do it and the later is well the demon only wants to play video games (completed 32 this year so far).
Alas brains be a silly thing.
I also wanted to be a game dev and a writer… Spooky.
I too struggle with the focus thing. Seemed so easy when I was a kid I’d stay up reading all night until sunrise but the drudgery of day to day life and all its problems seeps into my brain overriding whatever I’m reading where I loop the same sentence over and over again without even realising.
Summaries won’t fix that but honestly not even sure what will. A reading group mayhaps could help set goals and discussion is always fun. Lemme know when you figure it out
I’m actually trying to train my attention span to get longer again but its tough business with all these phones and scrooling content about the place. Honestly might just make my router ethernet only and force myself off the internet entirely
You know at one point I tried to force myself into the headspace of doing what it took to become a game developer; I was ready to go to university AND still be a working man at the same time, or at least I was psyching myself into it; then I realized I hate having commitments and decided to just put it aside. Having goals and structure definitely makes things extremely more manageable for me (as I found out when I dove into NaNoWriMo); but…like, several years of university? Like…sure, I’d love to be a game developer but like…who’s got that kind of time and patience?
I also wanted to be a writer (got stories in my head I’d love to put to paper), but it takes skill to be a good writer, and it takes practice to hone those skills and like…that’s just too much effort.
The only two things that work for me is someone else setting expectations on me to do something or letting my hyperfixation demon guide me. The former is good but can’t really find anyone to do it and the later is well the demon only wants to play video games (completed 32 this year so far).
Alas brains be a silly thing.
I also wanted to be a game dev and a writer… Spooky.