I got the results of my scan for the shockwave treatment today. The damage to my leg and ankle is even more extensive than first thought. And they said they need to do another scan to do the foot because they think the damage extends further into the foot. The appointment for that scan in on Wednesday then I’ll hear when the shockwave therapy will begin. But this will be more expensive and eat into the donations I was given for the shockwave therapy. I’m also not having much luck getting donations for my transport situation. I need £400 and received a total of £61, which I’m grateful for of course, but because the car isn’t fixed and I had a hospital appointment today I had to spend £24 of it getting taxis there and back. I have another hospital appointment in a hospital the next town over tomorrow, I’ll have to use the rest getting a taxi there and back. That puts the fund for the car repairs back down to zero and means I still have no transport to my future hospital appointments. What am I going to do? You have to pay for hospital transport anyway and it’s too late to book it for my next upcoming appointments. I’ve already had to cancel an endocrinology appointment because of this. Why does everything always have to be so difficult and expensive?

I wish they would just legalise assisted suicide here. I hate the hypocrisy of them claiming they care too much about us to let us die, while they don’t care enough to make sure we can access enough food and medical treatment.